Jonah Days

I'm reading Anne of Green Gables for the second time in my life, and I have a whole new appreciation for it. I feel like Lucy Maude Montgomery peeked into my window while I grew up and wrote about me - well, mostly the part about being imaginative, getting into trouble, not focusing on work, daydreaming... all that stuff. :)

Actually, as I'm reading them, I find myself still doing those things! I'm going to step out on a limb and tell you all that I'm absolutely convinced that I'm a little girl inhabiting a woman's body. My poor husband!!! I daydream ALL the time, I am usually off in some other world while washing dishes, vacuuming, blow drying my hair... I have fantastical daydreams, concocting whole novels - truly epic novels - in the course of a week whilst doing chores, making dinner, during the occasional lesson. Hehe. :D

I also confess that I have the "girlish" habit of talking to myself. I like to play my part in these dramas unfolding in my brain. I have imaginary conversations with real people in my life - in fact, if you're reading this, I've probably had conversations with you that you've never participated in!!! Lucky you!! It's especially funny when Adam or Scott come home unbeknownst to me, and I'm just chattering away to no one... they think it's really hilarious. I'm sure it is. :) ESPECIALLY when I'm using an accent - let's face it, British accents are so much more romantic than American accents!

So the "Jonah day" reference is also from Anne. She used the phrase to help her describe a really rough day. I've been having several Jonah days for the last week or so. God has seen fit to allow me to endure some pretty rough trials. Some things are just sort of swimming around me... they sort of have something to do with me, but not really.... and then last night, it became very personal. It's so humbling when confronted with sin and having to deal with the consequences. In reading In Light of Eternity, I had visions of being persecuted for my faith, rewards in heaven, encouragement in fellowship here... and all of those things are possible and good!!! They're just not the reality in my life right now. I hope for Heaven, and I hope that everyday I'm reaping rewards, but these hardships are the consequences of sin, which is definitely not nearly as heroic as being wronged for the sake of my beliefs!!!

*sigh*

But, I'll remember to " Count it all joy, when I encounter trials of all kinds, knowing that the testing of my faith produces perseverence..." I long for Heaven even more today than I did yesterday. I am more grateful for the cross and for grace today than I was yesterday. Thank you, God!!!