I love my husband.

That's really all I want to say today. I love him and feel so blessed to be married to him.

Now off to look at recliners and rocking chair pads. :)

Day 1

I woke up late this morning, and was already thinking "mmmmmm Starbucks!!!!" Ugh. It took me a few minutes to build up the resolve to not go. I told pretty much everyone via this lovely blog that I was going to NOT go to Starbucks, so I'd better not go. So, I contemplated what my alternatives were, and if I even had anything in the house that I wanted to eat, or how many of the items in my pantry had iffy expiration dates. So, I went to the corner market in search of coffee mate and cereal.

I walked away with some healthy cereal that made me feel better about my decision, the coffee mate, some apple bread which is soooooo stinking good, and a bunch of other stuff.

I also managed to do some meal planning for the first time in over a month and grocery shopped. I usually fall into the trap of thinking that I'd better have plenty of snack foods in the house if I'm to stay away from eating out, though. So, I have lots of stuff to snack on, breakfast food, and dinner ideas... lunch will just happen, I'm sure, but tons of snacks too. Not all good. I'm hoping that this adventure will help me to balance what I know I should have in my house, as well as prepare better. I want to develop some good habits for later on!! So, day 1 was successful on some fronts, and I'm sure I'll be able to do better next week when planning out my snack needs. :)

still deciding...

on whether or not to do the whole "lent" thing. I'm not catholic, and I've never done it before, but this year I was thinking that it might be a good excuse to take advantage of the next 40 days to eliminate something from my life. Adam and I have been discussing budgeting woes... it's hard going from being a 2-income, 2 people family - who seriously can do almost anything if we really wanted to - to being a 3 person family... thinking about income and what that's going to look like. We'll definitely make sacrifices we've never had to before, and I think a lot of those will be easier than I think they will be.

One of our major downfalls is eating out. In fact, I would say that's our most major downfall overall. I don't love grocery shopping... or meal planning. I don't love cooking. I don't hate any of these things either, but I go back and forth between being really good about it and skipping a few weeks... or months... whatever. :)

So, I'm thinking I'll give up eating out for Lent. Entirely. No more Starbucks runs in the morning... no more spontaneous Flancer's french fries runs, no more wings from Buffalo Wild Wings on a friday night... just good meal planning and homemade meals from now until Easter. I think it'll be a good thing. I'm a little tardy getting started... but I'm gonna do it anyways. :)

Praying...

James 1:5 - If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him.

So, I'm asking for wisdom - a big, healthy dose of wisdom. And opportunity too.

I can't tell you how many times within the last few months I've felt like fasting would be a great thing to be able to do, but I don't think Andrew would appreciate it very much. :) So, I'll stick with some heavy duty prayer for now. It's so great to be reminded of how big our God really is. How rich His love... His mercy. I really don't get His plan a lot of the time, and every once and awhile a situation arises that I just simply can't fathom. He's totally in control of the "uncontrolable". He's capable of great things. I just pray that I can get out of the way and just be joyful that I can even be a small part of a great work that He's doing.

Love the vague post? :) I'll bet you do!!

The Day Before

Tomorrow is Adam's knee surgery. It's minor - just a scope to repair his torn ligament and clean out some other stuff... I wanna say bone spurs, but I could be wrong. He called me earlier to tell me that the time of his surgery was moved from 9am to 12:30pm. That's good because the 9am time would've had us checking in at the surgery center in north Scottsdale at 7:30am - meaning a 6:30am departure from the house. Yuck - especially since I can't seem to haul my caboose out of bed any earlier than 7:30 or even 8am these days.

My sleep is obviously disrupted, and I'm so blessed... BEYOND blessed... that I have a schedule that allows me to be the bum I want to be, but still keeps me occupied so that I'm not going crazy with boredom. I'm relishing these last days of being able to just lay in bed because it feels better than getting up. I know it won't last long. :) Soon I'll have a little baby boy demanding to be fed and cuddled and loved on and talked to and... it's all very exciting. :D

So... Adam's surgery...

"Gabby", a very helpful medical person, dropped off some equipment that Adam will be using during his recovery. One item is a machine that he's supposed to use 6 hours a day - not sleeping. It keeps his knee in constant motion, and exercising it so that it will bend properly. We're starting at 45 degrees, and will be working our way up to 120 degrees over the next few weeks. They also gave us a non-ice cold therapy thingy. It basically circulates a very cold water/alcohol solution through this pad on his knee. He will wear that while he sleeps. It's actually pretty cool! Of course, she needed to show me how to use this stuff, so imagine me on the floor with my huge belly as she's putting my leg into these different contraptions so that I'll be able to show Adam tonight. My back was not happy.

Nila and Amanda are going to come hang out with me during the procedure, which will be fun, and then we get to go home, and I'll be in charge of getting his perscriptions and helping him get comfy at home. And then we'll watch tv and sleep! :) Our favorite activities at the moment. I'll make sure to post regarding the outcome and let you all know how he's doing tomorrow. Thanks for your prayers for both of us!

Ignorance is Bliss!!!

I watched a live birth video last night. Like, a real video showing a full on birth. Let me just say... ignorance really truly is bliss. I went to bed feeling a little discouraged, but I guess lots of women over the ages have gone through all that... I'm sure it'll be fine. :)

Soooo, the big events for this and last week are the Lost season premier, and Adam's knee surgery this Thursday. We watched Lost after seven:ten and, while Adam remains stubbornly unimpressed, I was LOVING the season premier. I have all kinds of theories, and more unanswered questions than I can count. But, isn't that what makes it so great?? :)

The surgery to repair his meniscus in his left knee has both Adam and I a little apprehensive. We, or I should say He, along with Amanda, made a mad dash this last weekend to finish painting the nursery and pick up Andrew's furniture (Thanks Mom and Dad!! And thanks to Scott, Mindy, and Amanda for helping us to bring it home.) The room is totally adorable, and I'll make sure to post a couple of pics once we have the stuff in there. The carpet is currently drying, because when we removed the few things we had in there, we realized how badly it needed to be cleaned. Baby preparations have been pretty much like this since the beginning of January. We have a crazy busy weekend full of stuff, and then we wait. It's a lot like planning our wedding all over again! We get a lot done, and then we wait... and then we do more, and then we wait again. Although, this time I don't mind waiting nearly as much. Being sick a couple of weeks ago really took it out of me. I use most of my energy to work and do a few things around here, and then I need to rest and do nothing - besides the fact that my sleep just isn't what it used to be. :) Between the four midnight runs to the bathroom and Andrew playing soccer as I'm trying to fall back asleep, it's made for an interesting sleep schedule. :)

So, pray for us as we live through Adam's recovery (supposedly about 6 weeks) and get through baby showers and out of town visitors and maternity leave preparations... all that fun stuff. :) Should make for a very interesting and quick 10 weeks!

Something's gotta give

But what?? What's going to happen when this little guy gets here? I keep thinking of what I have going on right now... teaching, working at the church, trying to keep my house in order... what's life going to look like when Adam and I have this little bundle thrown in there? I know people keep telling me that we'll figure it out, and that some things will give way, but what? Looking at the way things are right now, it's hard to see what is negotiable and what isn't. Are Adam and I going to have laundry folding parties on Saturday mornings? Am I going to have a screaming baby while I'm trying to go over flashcards with a student? Will my house become even MORE of a dustpit than it already is... which honestly would drive me up the wall the most, I think.

I will say that if my house isn't vacuumed and things aren't dusted, I feel like everything's falling apart. The kitchen too, probably. If the kitchen seems out of control... yikes! Will that all change? Will I care that my house looks like a disaster recovery area? Will I feel like a bad wife?

All this makes me wanna take a nap.